I FINISHED MY GIRLFRIEND'S PRESENT, I REPEAT, I FINISHED MY GIRLFRIEND'S PRESENT XD I am so proud, holy shit, just seeing it finished is such a relief right now... I also finished her other present so I am so happy, it's ridiculous, it's less than a week now... It's kind of scary to be honest, it doesn't feel like a year but I'm still so happy and I love her so much... One of my friend's has had her first boyfriend for just over a month now and she was complaining that she can't believe it's been a month and I so just wanted to say "Try and wrap your head around one year!" which I probably did at some point but I don't remember, but I wouldn't be surprised. Doll and I's 1 year is on the 25th of this month, on Friday and I'm so excited... I'll be going to her house after school on Friday then she'll hopefully come to mine Saturday and we'll have the house to ourselves Saturday night... ;) then on Monday we have our school science camp until Friday to we'll have pretty much a week together and I couldn't be happier :D
Completely unrelated topic but I'm thinking of learning Russian... I really like the language and my girlfriend is learning Japanese and it's quite inspiring for me to watch.
~Nightminds
Nightminds
Just a place for me to rant, post stories, poems and songs I've written, you know, that one place that every person needs at some stage
Saturday, 19 September 2015
Saturday, 12 September 2015
Hetalia - Germany Smut - Forever and Ever
This was written for one of my best friends, Squishy as a "welcome home" gift after being away for 5 months on exchange in France XD We used to roleplay all the time and her favourite character from Hetalia was Germany so... yea ~Nightminds
Forever and ever
It was very early in the morning when Selene woke up, gasping. She sat up in bed and leaned against the bed head as she drew her knees in, hugging them and burying her head into them. She had another nightmare but even though she knew it wasn't real... It still got to her. She tilted her head slightly to her left and saw her lover still sleeping soundly next to her, his eyelids hiding his beautiful baby blue eyes and his golden hair strewn across the pillow. Selene couldn't help but smile when she saw him, Ludwig always looked calmer when he slept, more at peace than during the day when his face was filled with lines of frustration and annoyance. She giggles softly, momentarily forgetting her nightmare as she recalls the bickering that occurs between Ludwig and her friend, Quin, usually over pointless things. She smiles and allows her hand to gently brush the blonde hair from his eyes and trail down his cheek and under his chin but is quick to pull her hand away as his eyes flutter open, looking up at her.
"S-sorry..." Selene's quick to apologise to him. "I didn't mean to wake you..."
He rubs his eyes with one hand, his other hand grabbing the hand that she pulled away. "It's okay... Are you alright...? You shouldn't be awake at this hour..."
She doesn't reply, choosing to look at her knees and stay silent.
"You had another nightmare didn't you..."
Again, Selene doesn't reply so he takes her silence as a yes.
"Selene, you know it isn't true... I'm right here, just like I always am." Ludwig sits up slightly, using his elbow to hold himself up as he looks at her.
"I know... It just feels so real..." She shrinks slightly, recalling the harsh words that he spat at her in the dream.
He sigh softly before patting the spot next to him, urging her to move closer. "I'm right here, liebe..." He pulls her closer to him, lying back down and pulling her back to him, wrapping his strong arms around her and nuzzling his face into the back of her neck.
Selene rests her hands on his arms around her waist and shuffles back so her back is as close to his chest as she can be, letting a small sigh of content relief escape her lips and her eyes slide shut as she attempts to return to sleep.
To no avail. She couldn't do it. Not when she's this close to Ludwig, now she's wide awake, gripping his arms around her and shuffling slightly, telling herself to sleep. It's impossible, she just can't sleep now, the heat starting to pool in her core because she's so close to him, hearing his breath and breathing in his scent.
"Selene..." His deep voice drawls slightly, tightening his grip around her waist.
"Luddy..." Her voice whimpers, starting to drip with lust as she shuffles again, moving against his lower body in an attempt to convey what she's feeling and hoping he gets the message.
A small grunt escapes his lips, signalling to Selene that she hit the spot so she does it again, pressing her ass against his lower half.
"Selene..." He growls her name in her ear, filled with want and need for her.
She tries to turn around to face him but Ludwig beat her to it, lifting himself up on his elbows and pushing her onto her back, crawling over her. She looks up at him, wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him down closer to her, trying to press her core against his hardening cock, earning another small grunt from him and encouraging him to grind their lower bodies together. A moan of relief escapes Selene's lips as the contact is made, her eyes almost closing as she looks up into his lust-filled eyes.
"Luddy... please..." Her voice desperate as his lips crash against hers, pulling her into a deep, heated kiss, their tongues immediately colliding and sending Selene into a mewling mess.
They've done this so many times before but every time they do it, it feels just like the first time and never loses any of it's passion, desperation or pleasure and they're reminded of this as they kiss like they've been apart for months. Her hands drift down his back and sides, reaching the hem of the black singlet he wore to bed and pulls it over his head, taking it off of him and revealing his muscled chest and flat stomach. Her soft hands trail down his chest as she curls her fingers, scratching his stomach when he forcefully explores her mouth, leaving no inch untouched by his wet tongue. Once her hands reached the elastic on his boxers, Ludwig pulls away from the kiss and pulls off her shirt, never taking his eyes away from her stunning blue ones. She had lifted her arms up to help him take her singlet off and it wasn't long before she realised he had managed to tie them together above her head with a simple leather strap which had been tied to the headboard. Instinctively she tugged on the bonds around her wrists, resulting in a soft chuckle from Ludwig.
"You know they won't come undone easily... You should know that by now." His voice draws her attention back to him, already forgetting how vulnerable she is like this.
His rough hands trail down her sides, his thumbs rubbing circles into her hips causing her to whimper and squirm in anticipation. It was a hot night so neither of them were wearing that much clothing which just made Ludwig's job easier as he pulled down Selene's underwear, the only layer between him and her already wet core. She squirms slightly as he pulls her underwear off and adds it to pile of forgotten and unnecessary clothes on the floor, leaving her naked beneath him which is exactly how he liked it. His hand trails over her leg, his thumb pressing dangerously close to her womanhood and causing her to shift her hips closer to his hand which only makes him pull his hand away and her to whine in discomfort.
"Luddy please..." Her pleading voice strains slightly, trying to convey what she wants him to do which he understands but decides to tease her further.
"What do you want?" He growls, low and demanding as his lips trail down her neck, pressing open-mouthed kisses as he goes, earning small whimpers from her.
She keeps as silent as she can, blushing in embarrassment as he forces soft whimpers and moans from her lips, unable to answer his question.
"I asked a question... I expect an answer." To emphasise his point, he bites on her collarbone, drawing out a surprised moan from her as his teeth graze along the sensitive bone.
"T-touch me..." Selene's embarrassed voice whimpers out, her face flushing red and her eyes closing as she lifts her hips in an at temp to hurry him up.
He chuckles softly and pushes her hips back down onto the bed, his fingers gently massaging her folds and his thumb rubbing around her sweet spot. His touch makes her moan and arch her back slightly, wanting to get closer to him, wanting to feel more. And more is what she gets. He pushes two fingers into her, basking in her moans that fill the air as he pushes his fingers in and out of her, curling them against her pounding inner walls. Ludwig can feel himself hardening, aching for her as her moans fill his ears and the erotic sight of her beneath him, naked, struggling against her bonds as she is filled with pleasure turns him on. He decides that that's enough for now, he needs her now and isn't willing to wait any longer. Selene whimpers as his strong fingers are drawn out of her and brought to his mouth to lick them clean, his blue eyes watching hers. She whines as she waits, rubbing her legs together trying to gain some relief in her desperation.
"Luddy... I need you..." Her voice begs, pleads for him and oh god does it effect him, turning him on even further if that were possible.
It almost hurts, how much he needs her and he doesn't wait another second before pushing himself into her, groaning as he fills her up. A wave of relief floods over Selene as the familiar yet new feeling of their coupling completes her needs, a loud moan escaping her lips. He doesn't hesitate for a moment before moving his hips against hers, pinning her down into the mattress. A new sense of passion is in the air now, mixed with desperation as the strong pace is set. A delicious moan fills the air from Selene, her sounds music to his ears that force him to pick up the pace as she sinks into the pillows and grips the leather strap that keeps her hands bound. Ludwig grunts as he continuously slams into her, driving pleasure into her with no bounds. His lips seek out hers, connecting as her almost continuous moans are muffled in the heated kiss and her hands tug on their bonds, wanting to touch him, to bring him closer, to run her hands through his messy blonde hair. He picked up one of her legs and wrapped it around his waist, allowing him to reach new places within her and filling her up even further, causing her to cry out his name, wanting anything and everything from her lover.
"Scream it... Scream my name... Tell me who you belong to!" Ludwig growls lowly, feeling her clenching around his cock and knowing she's near her end.
And she does. Oh how she screams his name, driving him closer to his own end as he thrusts into her. Selene's face contorts in pleasure as her eyes clench shut and her body writhes under his weight, her orgasm ripping through her. Ludwig pulls back slightly to watch her, groaning in pleasure as she tightens around him, pushing him over the edge and releasing into her, filling her up with his hot seed. He almost collapses over her, panting but manages to hold himself up before pulling himself out of her, drawing a soft whine from Selene's bruised lips. He lies down beside her and pulls her now tired body close to him, feeling her pant against his neck as he reaches an arm up to untie the leather strap. When her hands are freed, he gently holds her wrists and presses a kiss to the red marks created when she was pulling on the bonds. She smiles softly and pulls him close to her, kissing him softly and sincerely to which he responds immediately, kissing her back with the same softness and sincerity. The gentle nature of the kiss contradicts their normal ferocity but shares the same passion and gets across the same message of love shared between them. Ludwig wraps an arm around her as he pulls away from the kiss, looking at her with those striking eyes of his and stroking her red hair with his strong hand.
"Can you sleep now, liebe...?" He brings his hand to cup his cheek, making her look at him.
Selene nods and cuddles herself into him, nestling as close as she can, not even leaving room for air to go between her and her German lover. Her eyes close and her hands rest on his chest as she drifts into the world of sleep, attempting to get closer still. Ludwig watches her fall asleep with loving eyes and a soft smile on his lips before closing his own eyes and wrapping both arms around her, caging her in. As he falls asleep, he silently promises once again to protect her forever, to be with her forever and to love her forever.
Forever and ever
I'm stressed.
Okay, everyone gets stressed, for what will vary from person to person but currently, as I am in school and it's nearing the end of term, everything is becoming due around the same time and UGH *pulling hair out* On top of all my homework, I also have my girlfriend's one year anniversary gift to finish off and I'm so desperate to finish it off that it has actually become my break time activity so in reality, I'm getting no breaks. Not a good idea, I know but I neeeeeeeeeed to get in done, along with all my assignments... I've even resorted to taking bits and pieces of Doll's present to school to do in class if I've finished the work and I've had a few friends help me as well which will hopefully speed everything up... I'd tell you what her present is but I know she reads this occasionally (Hi princess xx) so I'd like to keep what she doesn't know still a secret... who knows, maybe I'll make a post about our 1 year anniversary and share pictures of what I made her and what she made me, that could be cool... I'll think about it but for now, I best be getting back to her present as I'm meant to be on break but felt like I needed to rant XD
~Nightminds
Monday, 7 September 2015
The Story is a Lie - Chapter 1
The Story is a Lie
Chapter 1
It’s not every day you see a demon running down the streets
in broad daylight, especially when she had a perfectly good set of wings to use
but that’s what George Mewford saw one morning in Lacintha whilst he was doing
his general shopping. As he realised that he should probably move before the
wild eyed girl ran into him, she did just that, knocking him and all his bags
to the ground.
“Fuck, I am so sorry!” She stood up quickly but as she tried
to run off again, George stopped her, standing up and grabbing her arm.
“What are you running from?” He asked her, wondering if he
could help her somehow.
“About three police cars, a police chopper, two pedestrians
and my brother, why?” The girl spoke quickly, that explains why she wasn’t
using her wings…
“Follow me, I can help you… I think, well, I can try.”
“Wait what? Why would you want to help me?” Surprised, the
girl’s voice is thankful.
“Because I like helping people, come on!” Leaving his bags
on sidewalk, he starts to run quickly down the road, pulling Azure with him and
into his house.
Only a few minutes after George shut the front door, a dark
flash goes past the window, followed by four police cars with sirens blaring
and the sounds of a helicopter overhead.
“Huh, they sent another police car out…” She grins. “Take
that, assholes!”
“Please don’t swear in my house, I’m not a fan of those
words.”
The girl just shrugs. “I’m Azure, thanks for helping me
out.”
“Happy to help, I’m George.” He smiles and holds his hand
out.
Ignoring his hand, Azure starts exploring his house. “Nice
house you have here, how long you had it?”
“Only a few years actually…” In an attempt to ignore her
lack of manners, he does as a good host always should. “Drink?”
“Do you have any alcohol?”
“No… but I do have coffee”
“That’ll do.” Azure shrugs, peering out the window. “I
wonder how long it’ll take Carmine to notice he’s not following me anymore.”
“Who’s Carmine?” George asks, putting the kettle on.
“Carmine is my brother, the dark flash that went past just
before. He’s a smart shit head, it probably won’t take him long to figure it
out.”
“Ah… he’s pretty fast then.” Putting the coffee and sugar
into two mugs, George starts inquiring about this strange girl.
“Well he was flying, what did you expect?”
“Ah, that makes sense…” As the partial feline pours the hot
water and milk into the cups and passes the coffee to Azure, he takes a good
look at her for the first time.
Demonic is the first word that goes through his mind,
obviously. With those ice cold blue eyes and dark wings, she couldn’t be anything
else. Against her black hair, you can see just how pale she really is, it’s
like she has never seen daylight, not a single spot or blemish on her pristine
skin.
“You staring for a reason?” Azure takes the coffee from him
and watches him with those cold eyes.
“No, no, I apologise for staring.” George drinks his own
coffee with his head down.
Boy is this girl trouble… swearing under his roof, quite
rude, loud, obnoxious and obviously in trouble with the police and her brother
has something to do with it… Why was he helping her again? Because he liked
helping people… geez…
As Azure drank her coffee, she watched this odd man
carefully.
He appeared to be part cat, with ginger fur all over his
body, sharper nails than an average person, those wide green eyes and the ears
that gave him away. Wait, and the tail, and the ginger tail. She couldn’t help
but wonder why he was helping her… she’s in deep shit with the police after
all. Carmine will sniff her out eventually… she needs to keep moving or George
will be in danger too.
“Hey look, thanks for helping me but I need to keep moving,
I don’t want to put you in danger.” Azure starts, draining her coffee and
putting the mug on the sink.
“You’re staying right here. You go out there and they’ll
find you immediately, you’ll be safer here.” George says firmly.
“If I stay here and they find me, they’ll kill you for
helping me.”
“That’s not true, the police aren’t that cruel.” George
didn’t believe her, not for a second.
“But Carmine would.” Azure was blunt and determined. “He’ll
kill both of us in the blink of an eye; you have no idea what he is capable
of.”
“If he would do that… would you?” The feline says hesitantly
after a moment of silence.
“If the roles were reversed and Carmine had done what I did…
yes.” The demon sighs softly. “I have to go…”
“What did you do?” He asks her, wanting to know more as he
prevents her from leaving his house.
Why is he so persistent? Why won’t he just let her leave?
“You wouldn’t understand, just let me leave.” Azure snaps at
him but as no later than she had finished her sentence, there is a heavy, loud
knock at the door.
“I know you’re in there, sis! I can smell you!” Her
brother’s voice yells loudly.
“I can smell you too and I can tell you now, you don’t smell
very nice!” Azure responds, yelling back.
“Is that your brother?” George asks quickly, his green eyes
widening.
“Yep, I told you he’d find me… Is there any way you can
leave this house while I deal with him?”
“I’m not going anywhere till you tell me what you did.”
“Are you fucking kidding me? You need to get out! Now!”
Azure demands, desperate.
“Then tell me.” George says, not wavering for a second.
“I can hear you!” Carmine’s voice shouts, the wooden door
starting to splinter under the force of his blows.
Azure growls, the blue in her eyes and on her wings
seemingly darkening. “I killed our parents in a house fire, along with our baby
brother, Harlequin and he wants revenge. Do I blame him? No, but it was an
accident. Now will you leave?”
George doesn’t move, stunned. Oh for fuck’s sake… Azure
pushes him into the lounge room and onto the floor, out of sight.
“Hey little sis!” A dark grin spreads upon her brother’s
face as he comes around the corner. “I’ve been looking for you.”
The red in his eyes mirrors her blue ones, the red colour on
his wings dark and obvious, showing his annoyance and anger.
“Really? Couldn’t tell.” Azure, in her usual smartass tone
responds accordingly.
“Who’s your friend?” Carmine asks, glancing over her
shoulder to George, still lying on the floor, frozen.
“Leave him, I forced my way in here to hide, leave him
alone.”
“You seem awfully protective over him if that is the case.”
There is a malicious tone in his voice as he steps around Azure to get a better
look at him. “Should I kill him? I don’t want him to remember that either of us
was here.”
“No!” Azure says quickly as her brother starts to move
closer to her new friend.
“No?” Carmine’s signature malicious grin spreads across his
face. “You’re going to tell me ‘no’ when you set our house on fire? You’re
going to tell me ‘no’ when we both watched our parents scream and burn as your
fire took their lives. You’re going to tell me ‘no’ when you let our baby
brother, who hadn’t even seen anything of the world, burn and die. You let
Harlequin die.”
He spits out the next sentence, snarling at her. “And now
you and your little friend can join him.”
Azure’s eyes widen as the room heats up slowly and a border
of crimson flame circles her brother, protecting him against his own power. She
immediately starts concentrating, working against her brother, her signature
cerulean flames battling against Carmine’s red fire.
George slowly wakes from his state of shock to bright lights
swirling around his living room, much to his own surprise.
“Wha…?” He starts, looking around.
“Get out of here!” Azure’s voice calls out to him through
the fire.
“Azure…” She’s in trouble… is that her brother…? Carmine,
wasn’t it?
George stands slowly, slightly unbalanced as he tries to
reorientate himself with the room and the world. As he looks around, he doesn’t
notice Carmine turn in his direction and hurl a bright ball of red flame right
at him. Just before it hits him, a sphere of blue flame combines with the red,
creating a neutralised, purple fireball that hits him square in the chest.
“See? You are protective of him.” Carmine’s wicked grin
shows his intent as he steps closer to the fallen feline.
“Get the fuck away from him, he didn’t do anything!” Azure
runs to stand in between her friend and her brother, swallowing any and all
fear in her throat.
“He helped a criminal, that’s a crime in itself.”
“Then you’ll have to go through me.” Her blue eyes stare
into his red, flaming orbs as she draws on all her power, creating a barrier
around herself and George and propelling a fireball of pure blue flame in his
direction.
Carmine retaliates immediately, sending an orb of green flame
of equal power back at her, intercepting her fireball and fusing with it.
Green…? Azure’s thoughts race as she recognised the green
flame and its power. Carmine is red, destruction… She’s blue, illusion and
Harlequin was green… time.
As the teal orb continued its path towards her protective
barrier, Azure prayed that the barrier would deflect it. She prayed and she
prayed until the very moment the orb hit her shield, dissolving it and creating
a bright light that filled the room, blinding them all.
And that’s the last thing Azure remembers.
Sunday, 6 September 2015
Passing Away
I was talking with my mother earlier about what's worse, losing a loved one suddenly or to watch them slowly die, knowing they don't have long left. Her father (my grandpa) is currently dying very slowly and everyday, we watch him grow weaker and weaker and become less able to do his favourite things (fishing, tennis) and my mum was saying that the one good thing about losing someone slowly is that you get the chance to tell them you love them. Yesterday was father's day and my mum and her sister took their dad out for lunch to make what we pretty much know to be his last father's day as special as they could. If you lost someone suddenly, overnight or something, you wouldn't have that chance but you also wouldn't have to watch them suffer and watch them deteriorate as a person before they finally go. It's a sad time to watch this happen to my grandpa who's helped take care of me as well as he could all my life and I share so many memories with that man, I'll be very sad when he finally goes but I'm not looking forward to how my mother will be when he passes away, he's obviously been a big part of her life and in her words "I've never met anyone who is as much of a gentleman as my dad." We're all going to miss him when he goes, even now my Granny and Grandpa are packing packing their stuff into boxes and selling a lot so they can move into a retirement village to relieve some excess stress from their shoulders but lucky for us, they intend to move to a retirement home that isn't far from our house so we'll get to see them regularly which will be awesome, it'll give us more of an opportunity to make his last years the best we can make them
~Nightminds
Ethereal - Chapter 1
Ethereal
Chapter 1
I’m lost.
But I know I’m on the corner of Harmony St and Fleeting Rd.
I’m lonely.
But I’m standing in a crowd of people with my friends and
girlfriend.
I’m sad.
But there is nothing wrong with my life except one thing.
I’m dead.
This is the afterlife, eh? Well, it’s painless, I guess, I
can’t feel my broken chest or crushed organs and I’m able to walk just like I
could when I was alive. Huh… I’m leaning against the building beside the
footpath, watching my friends grieve and the crowds walk past. I watch as a
little boy comes walking down the path, running his hand along the wall as he
walks, his little arm passing right through me. Already figured I couldn’t
touch people… but what about objects? Just to see, I pick up a small stone off
the ground with ease and close my fingers around it, encompassing the rock.
Weird… I can pick up objects. Damn, does that mean the theory about ghosts
being about to pass through walls isn’t true? I was hoping it was.
I wonder how Scott is feeling right now… I know he didn’t
mean to push me onto the oncoming traffic but he’s stronger than he looks and
I’m kinda weak, I hope he doesn’t feel too bad. Who am I kidding, of course he
does, he’s going to blame himself for it, I just know it... I wonder if I can
leave a message for him to make him okay? Oh shit, what about Kayley… I can see
her now, she’s just lost it. My poor girl… My poor little angel… she’ll be okay
right…?
“Dale!” I can hear her cry my name as she collapses to the
ground, sobbing. Who am I kidding? She won’t be “okay”.
Jake and Cassy rush to her, hugging her tight and in tears
herself while Jake seems shocked, kneeling beside the girls. I look over to
Scott who is stunned, paralysed even, with his girlfriend, Eva, trying to get
him to respond to her but doesn’t seem to be succeeding. Gah, what can I do?
Nothing…
Interesting thing about being dead is seeing your own body
before you, mangled and broken and yet you’re not controlling it. I watch as my
crushed body gets lifted into the ambulance, a crowd of people watching along
with my sobbing girlfriend, unable to take her eyes off my dead body. I guess
it was that image of my dead body that make being dead feel real because there
is no way that body is alive and there is no question that that body is… me.
“Scott? What are you doing?” I hear Eva talk and turn around
to see what was happening.
Scott had walked down the footpath and didn’t appear to be
stopping, even as Eva was pulling on his arm, as hard as she could.
“Scott?! Answer me!” Eva’s voice is worried… terrified even,
he hasn’t said anything since I died.
He slowly starts turning onto the road, not paying attention
to any traffic or anything, not caring either… he better not try to… he better
not…
Moments before he stepped in front of the car driving down
the road, Jake pulled him back onto the footpath.
“What the hell, man? We just lost one friend, we don’t need
to lose another!” Jake yells, trying to talk some sense into the man.
“It’s my fault…” Scott spoke, softly. “It’s entirely my
fault…”
“Scotty… baby, it’s not your fault, you didn’t mean to, we
don’t blame you.” Eva stands in front of him and holds his face with both
hands, forcing him to look at her, a fearful, shamed look in his eyes. “Don’t
blame yourself, baby…”
Scott… my best friend since primary school… I don’t blame
you, man, it wasn’t your fault… I pick up a rock from my feet and go over to
the wall of the building. I start dragging the rock against the bricks, writing
the words “It’s not your fault”.
It takes a few moments for Scott, Jake and Eva to hear the
scraping sound and start watching the wall in amazement as the words form.
“It’s not your fault…?” Eva reads out slowly, shocked.
“Dale…?” Scott asks softly, scared. “I’m sorry, I’m so, so
sorry, Dale… please forgive me…”
“Hey, if that was him, he doesn’t blame you, man…” Jake
says, still staring at the wall in disbelief.
Good, they know it was me… I smile softly, watching them.
They’ll be okay… I know they will.
“Scott? Are you okay?” Cassy comes up the path towards them
with a red-faced Kayley walking next to her. “Guys… what are you looking at?”
Kayley and Cassandra follow their gaze to the brick wall I
wrote on, looking quite confused.
“When did that get there…?” Kayley asks, sniffing gently.
“I think Dale wrote it…” Eva said quietly.
“Dale…?” Kayley’s hair goes everywhere as she turns around
rapidly, looking every which way. “Dale! Can you hear us?!”
I can hear you, baby…
She turns to the wall and rests her head against it, her
fingers tracing the words. “It looks just like his hand writing… Dale…? If you
can hear us… if you can hear me… I love you…”
I love you too, princess… I reach out my hand to touch her
shoulder but my hand passes through her. Shit, I forgot about that… All I can
do is watch as her eyes fill with tears once again, Eva by her side and hugging
her while Cassy rubs her back gently. Scott is still staring at the wall in
disbelief with Jake’s hand on his shoulder.
“Let’s all just go home… Kay, do you want to stay at our
house? Then you won’t have to go home just yet… It’ll just be you, me, Scott
and Cassy” Eva asks her, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear as Kayley
faces her and nods slowly.
“Yea, you can come to ours, Kay, it’ll give you more time
before you have to go home…” Scott said, nodding and agreeing with his
girlfriend.
“Thank you…” Kayley says quietly, sadness still present in
her voice.
My poor girl… at least the others are supporting her. They
all start walking back to where our cars were all parked… lucky I guess that
Kay and I carpooled with Jake so our car wasn’t there. I walk with there,
listening and watching as my princess whimpers quietly with Eva gently
whispering words of comfort and Scott walking with his head down. I don’t want
to imagine the guilt he’s feeling right now…
“Hey Jake, wanna come to ours as well? Then it can be all of
us together tonight…” Cassy asks him as they walk.
Everyone knows that Cassy likes Jake… except Jake. But you
can never tell what Jake is thinking, he’s good at hiding his thoughts and his
emotions very well so we don’t know whether he likes Cassy back or not… I hope
he does, I reckon they’d be good together… Jake’s lack of emotion and Cassy’s
excessive amounts of it might make him open up a little more which would be
great.
“Sure, I’ll come... I’ll drive myself there though; I don’t
want to leave my car out here overnight.” Jake says, his face passive as
always. “You can come if you want, I don’t really remember the way to your
house.”
“Sure, I’ll go with you.” Cassy smiles and matches her pace
with his so she can walk with him. “We’ll see you guys back at our place.”
Jake and Cassy go in a different direction to Jake’s car
while the other trio continue down to where Scott’s car is waiting.
“I’ll drive, Scotty, can you pass me the keys?” Eva asks,
Scott promptly tossing her his keys not long after she had spoken. “Thanks,
baby.”
I wonder if the theory of possession is true… That’d help me
get around easier. I wouldn’t want to possess a person, fuck no, I would never
want to do that to someone… objects on the other hand, I can do. I want to stay
with Kayley, she’s my main concern right now… Her phone? Nah, that’s usually in
her pocket, I wouldn’t be able to see anything… Her necklace. The one I gave
her, she never takes it off… perfect. Smiling to myself about how clever I am,
I focus on the silver necklace around her neck and the heart shaped pendent
with our names engraved into the back. I focus…. Focussing… Nope, never mind,
can’t do it… I look around again, trying to find a way to get in the car when I
realise I already am inside the car and I can’t see Kayley… wait it worked?
Aha! I am a clever boy, very clever.
“Kay, I have chocolate at home if you want some, it’s in my
room, I’ll find it when we get home.” Eva says in an attempt to cheer the poor
girl up.
“Wait, since when did you have chocolate in our room? I want
some!” Scott said, pretending to look shocked at his girlfriend.
“That’s why I didn’t tell you because it’s mine and I don’t
want you to eat it.” Eva grins at him, poking his tongue out.
Kayley giggles lightly at their banter, lifting her hand and
holding the pendent that I’ve currently possessed, running her fingers along
the edges of it. It feels so nice to feel her touch again… I’m gonna miss my
girl a lot… I wonder if she’ll miss me
Song - What once was mine
To be honest, I'm not entirely sure what my inspiration was here, the verses are quite slow in comparison to the chorus which speeds up a notch. This song was written ages ago now but I do know I was quite sad at the time (as people tend to be when they write sad stuff) ~Nightminds
What once was mine
[Verse 1]
When you were here, I was happy then
But my time is done and we're over, friend
You're happier now and I know how
Should've known I was better dead
Wish I was there, still by your side
How I wish I could still call you mine
But we're over now and I don't see how
Wish I knew I was out of line
[Chorus]
When I'm dead and when I'm gone
Will you think of me again?
Now you've moved on and you're happy
Will I cross your mind at the end?
I used to make you smile when you were mine
Can I have just one last kiss?
I miss your laugh and your teasing words
Is there something of me you'll miss?
[Verse 2]
Feels like yesterday, you were in my arms
But today I feel alone and scarred
It's been so long since you've been gone
I never meant to cause you harm
I saw you 'round the other week
You looked to happy when I'm just bleak
I've never been so wrong since you've been gone
I want to see you, just one small peep
[Chorus]
When I'm dead and when I'm gone
Will you think of me again?
Now you've moved on and you're happy
Will I cross your mind at the end?
I used to make you smile when you were mine
Can I have just one last kiss?
I miss your laugh and your teasing words
Is there something of me you'll miss?
When I'm dead and when I'm gone
Will you think of me again?
Now you've moved on and you're happy
Will I cross your mind at the end?
I want you back but you're taken now
Is this feeling just too wrong?
It's too late to ask right now
But can I ask why you are gone?
When you're lost and you don't belong
Will you think of me and this song?
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